Suffering~

I'm damn suffer now
I went out with Melvin just now
we talked a lots
He told me about him and esther :)
A bit envy with him.. :P

I was read a article
the title is ''学会爱自己''
sometimes those article make me learn a lots
让我知道人生的道理
i feel that i'm the one who the most love myself
but after i read that article
i just knew it
我一点都不爱我自己

‘不要为了任何事任何人折磨自己。譬如说不吃饭，哭泣，自闭。。这些都是傻瓜才会做得’
Lol.. This is me, peipei~
我承认我是个软弱的人
I easy to cry
Sometimes i will be quite all the time when i'm moody.
朋友们说我是他们心中的开心果
如果开心果不开心
那其他人怎么开心？
I told myself thousand times already
whatever what happen
i need to cheerful always to face those things
but i always couldn't make it
and now, i gonna wishing myself
i wish i will be cheerful always to face everythings is coming for me
no matter what happen

And now, i'm suffering
i knew somethings what i care
i can't make decision by myself
''yes'' or ''no''
anyone who can tell me ?

有些事
我不想轻易的放弃
因为一开始，是自己做得决定
Honestly
i have no confident to myself
i have no idea for myself
some more i don't know what to do
but我就是不想放弃
那时因为我是认真的~

‘不开心的时候白天看看蓝天晚上看看夜色，广阔的天空自有属于我们的爱，宁可高傲的发霉也不要低调的恋爱。跟自己说我是最好的，保持一份自信。’
我希望我可以做到这一点
the day who the one i love he will be leave coming soon
i can do nothing for him
i just pray for him that he will be happinese in his life
i miss him, i miss him, seriously.. i miss him
我不知道他离开的后我的天空会是什么颜色
但我依然会仰着头看着天空
那是因为我不想把泪流出来
虽然会有一段时间不能见面
但是我觉得在这段时间我会忙于在工作上吧
waiting to see him again :)
as he said ''god bless us''
就算是单身，我也会高傲的过日子
because i'm pround i fall in love with someone is the best guy in my life
even thought he is not my bf

i will miss you....
always..